Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Thoughts of you today

Today I was thinking of you - and how much I miss you. We were so close, and so loving when I had the summer with you - and now since I have taken you back to your daddy, I havent heard from you at all. Your little faces and voice stir in my head everyday, and I cry. I love you, andf I need you. I miss you more than my heart can hold, and thats why the tears come to my eyes.

I had a dream the other night you said you didnt miss me - I hope this was a nightmare and not a vision. I know you have been told by this point that I am not someone who cares - but I know you know in your heart thats not true. I miss and love you very much.

Madison when you look in the mirror and smile, we share the share the same smile. Joey when you see your eyes sparkle, know we share the same eyes. We all share the same blood, and you are my children. have nothing but love for you.

With Love-

Monday, November 21, 2005

Dearest Madison and Joey-

I am going to write this to show you how much my love for you has never changed. This will be an online diary of how you and I were then, now, and will be in the future. As I write this, I think of your cute little fingers and toes on each of you - of which I counted as you were born. You each are a product of love and happiness. Never forget that. You are always my first loves. I never knew of such a love till you were both in my life. When I look at you - I see such bright promise and internal glory. Anyone that has ever come into your presence has seen it too. You are both the most wonderful beings that have ever walked this earth. Anyones life is better with you in it.

Please read this as often as you can, and know I am always by your side - even when I am not. Joey - you and I have a saying we say to each other..I ask where you are today - and you reply "In your heart Mommy...". Yuo are both there, and will always be there - till the end of time.

Your loving Mother-